You know how we grew up writing long-term goals, making future plans, deciding career prospects and all. And then along the line,stuff happen,dreams change, there’s a sort of digresssion and new ideas come up,other opportunities surface. There’s an abruption in the linear progression. The plan isn’t just going as planned. You know what they say, when life gives you lemons,make lemonade. And then you’re stuck. So many things to do,do little time.
I think it’s safe to say that i’m @ this point of my life. I had plans buh suddenly, they don’t seem fascinating anymore. I’ve sorta diverged into something entirely different. [ a couple of years ago,if someone had said something, i’d probably had told them off ]. You know buh life happens. I don’t think we completely have the power to control our lives without any external support. There are other factors that contribute to who and what we’d become. God has the final say and if his plans for us don’t go in sync with our personal desires, we’re OOO[on our own]. Many a times, i’ve struggled between supressing my own desires for God’s perfect will and i tell you it hasn’t been easy; that aside.
Recently,i’ve found myself involved in things that i ordinarily woldn’t do. Career-wise i’m heading towards a totally different direction,not totally ditching my previous plans buh finding meaning in more exciting things.
Media has always been my desire. My dream was[is] to be the next Oprah;successful talkshow host [Radio & TV] & all. Then i got into school,for some reasons, i got involved in French[totally out of place!] got my diploma, and then went further to get my ongoing-degree[which i hope and pray i finish LOL] and International Studies. [SMH for myself]. Along the line, creative writing and poetry came up. I kinda like the idea of a future there. ”Successful author and poet” doesn’t sound so bad. Even if i don’t get to that level, it could just be a side hustle sorta thing. And then Makeup and Photography which i’m about to dive into just completely swept me off my feet. I’vn’t been this excited in a while. And then not forgetting my beloved Psychology! See many hustles. LOL.
I think i’m just basically evolving you know. The goal @ the end of the day is to be successful enough to be a blessing to others. That’s how i see it. There are also times when i feel the need to just sit in front of my laptop without moving an inch and make money @ the same time. All this hustling is not in my DNA. LOL. I’m yet to find my bearing because up to me i’d get involved in everything. I need to be able to decide the main from the side hustles. LOL
It is well.
I have always wanted to have children (Not now tho; LOOL. Somewhere in the near future). 2 boys and 2 girls. (No cheating :|). Really i dunno where the inspiration came from. I just thought of it yesterday. Oh! now i remember. My mum and i have a rusty relationship (Old news i know). From time to time, after one of those heated arguments, I sit back and think of my own children. One thing i know for sure is history isn’t gonna repeat itself. I’m gonna be part of my children’s lives. I’m gonna be involved and above all i’m gonna be their best friend. Really! I mean it.
Anyways i’ve decided to write a letter to my unborn daughter you know so as to remind myself of those things i’ll love to do with her.
First of all i CAN’T wait to meet you. I know it’s gonna be one of the happiest days of my life (if Jesus tarries).
I’m looking forward to buying you a crib and setting up your nursery.
I can’t wait for your baby shower and go shopping for you.
I’m looking forward to your christening and church dedication. I’m gonna bring you up in the way of the Lord.
I can’t wait to throw your 1st birthday bash.
I can’t wait to buy school supplies and for you to start school.
I can’t wait to take you on vacation.
I can’t wait to attend Open day and PTA meetings because i know you’re gonna take after your mom(and maybe your father) and do excellently well in school.
I also can’t wait to attend your Prizegiving-day where you’ll be awarded for your hard work.
I’m looking forward to throwing you another big landmark party on your 10th birthday
I can’t wait for you to graduate elementary school.
Junior High will be a breeze. You’ll be just fine.
I can’t wait to buy your first makeup set.
I can’t wait for your sweet sixteen.
I can’t wait to go prom shopping with you
And i cannot wait to see your date.
I can’t wait to have late-night convos with you.
I can’t wait to teach you the things of God.
I’m really looking forward to talking about boys with you.
I can’t wait to teach you about sex and abstainence.
I can’t wait for you to be a Senior
I can’t wait for you to graduate.
I’m looking forward to your grad party
Because i can’t wait to help you fill out your college forms and write your essays.
I promise not to impose any career on you.
You’re free to pick anyone you’re capable of.
I also can’t wait for you to come out in flying colours after your professional exams.
I can’t wait for you to be legal.
I can’t wait for you to get your Bsc and Msc.
I’m looking forward to the day you’ll bring that special guy home because i trust you won’t dissapoint.
Buh you know what honey,it’s gonna take a while before i bring you into this world. I’m yet to meet your father and i wanna lay a good foundation for you. So mummy’s gonna continue working hard so that you can be born with a Diamond spoon. Alright?! So keep on chilling with Jesus until we’re ready so that you can have the best 😀
With Lots of Love,
*You can say your awwwns now* 😀 🙂